It's unbearable.

I have a heavy heart. I can't get over it. I can't move on. I'm too much traumatized by what's happening between us. I can't understand his actions. I'm becoming narrow-minded person. I am in so much pain right now. Even crying can't help me. Even my dearest friends can't make me laugh. It may seem that I am overreacting but this is too much. The pain, it's killing me. This is my first time I ever felt this. The feeling of being unwanted by the person you loved the most. Letting this out is not easy. It will never be easy. I hate goodbyes but I have many of those. I'm losing all my hopes. I'm starting to lose myself.