FINE

hindi na ako nagulat dun sa desisyon mo na maglayo muna tayo. ganun naman lagi desisyon mo pag nagkakaganito tayo eh. ang tanga ko lang para isipin na magkakaayos pa tayo. pero hindi. napatunayan nito sa akin na hindi hamak na mas mahalaga ung pride mo kaysa sa akin. alam ko, nasasaktan ka pag nag-aaway tayo pero alam mo din ba na nasasaktan ako? akala ko, ako ung mahina sa atin. hindi pala. ikaw ang unang sumuko. ikaw. tapos sinanasabi mo na hintayin kita pagbalik mo? hindi ako martir. inaamin ko, mahal kita ng sobra pero itng ginawa mo sa akin. walang katulad. walang kasing sakit. salamat ha. hindi ko akalain na sa lahat, ikaw pa ang makakagawa nito. daig pa nito ung nalaman ko na niloloko lang ako ni j****. grabe..

LAYO ang ang gutso mo di ba? sige. lalayo ako. ung sobrang layo sa iyo/ ung hindi mo na ako makikita. wala ka nang maririnig sa akin. wala na. LAYO di ba??? sige. ngayon, hindi ko na ipagpipilitan ang sarili ko. hindi na. muli, itinaboy mo ako. hindi na ako lalapit sayo. tama na ang ilang beses mong pagtaboy sa akin. tama na. hindi ko na kaya.

ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit ako ganito ngayon. ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit ako sumuko. ikaw. nung una, alam ko. kasalanan ko. pero ngayon? ikaw na. iniintay kita gabi2. nagmemessage ako. nagbablog ako. anu gingawa mo? wala. tama nang ito na ang huling blog na mababasa mo tungkol sa nararamdaman ko tungkol sayo.

kung ako sayo, wag ka nang umasa sa akin kasi hindi mo alam ung sakit na ginawa mo. sige.

YOU'VE LOST ME.

simula ngayon

wala na akong kilalang kevin brian c. yumang.
wala akong naging POOH.
wala.
kakalimutan ko ang lahat ng nangyari.
wala nang matitira na alaala mo sa akin.
WALA na.

LETTING GO TAKES LOVE [anonymous]

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.

To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.

To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.

To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.

To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.

To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.

To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.

To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.

To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.

To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.

To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.

To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.

To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more
Remember: The time to love is short

sige.

kalimutan mo na ako. ang lahat ng tungkol sa akin. ganun din ang gagawin ko.

it will NEVER be the same.

may mga bagay na hindi na kayang ibalik pa sa dati. ung tipong dyamante, pag may lamat na, mababa na ang halaga. ang sugat na kaht gumaling na, may peklat naman. ang paghingi ng sorry eh nagawa mo na ang kasalanan. hindi madaling iwasan ang mga pagkakamali. pero dapat malaman na sa bawat pagkakamaling nagawa, hindi lahat ay kayang bumalik sa dati. minsan pa nga, nagsisimula ang isang gulo na wala nang katapusan dahil masyadong nasaktan. pero ano nga ba ang magagawa natin kung iyong mga tao sa mismo sa paligid mo ang nagpapahiwatig na wag na lang kayong bumalik sa dati? ipipilit mo ba ang sarili mo o hahayaan mo na lang ang gusto niya? mahirap. pero ganun talaga. buhay yan eh.

uhm

binabawi ko na ung blog ko entitled SANA sa multiply. hayaan mo na lang ako. wag mo na sundin ung gusto ko. mas masasaktan lang ako.

bye.for.real.

ngayon, napatunayan ko na mas mahalaga ang pride mo kaysa sa akin. masakit isipin pero iyong ung totoo. ang sakit. sobra. pero anong magagawa ko. hanggang dito na nga lang tayo. wag kang mag-alala. hindi na ako magpaparamdam sayo. kahit kailan. wala ka na ring malalaman na nararamdaman ko tungkol sayo. wala na. hindi na kita guguluhin. hinahayaan na kita. tutal. iyon din naman ang gusto mo. ang sumuko ako. eto. sumusuko na ako. sabihin mo na mahina ako. na hindi ko tinupad ung promise. pero sana maisip mo na paano ko gagawin kung ikaw mismo, ayaw mo. hindi mo alam kung gaano kasakit to. sa huling sandali. ikaw rin pala ung makakasakit sa aking sobra. wala na. wala na.

:((

ang sakit.
SOBRA
online ka pala.
nako.
wala na.
wala na.

nasaktan na ako ng todo.
wala na.






:((

PENDING :O

“Why pursue changing the world if you can’t even change yourself?” I asked.
“If the world will change, I will cope with those changes and be someone else.” Rain answered.

That part of the conversation still echoed in my mind. I cannot get over it. I cannot believe how the Magna Cum Laude of Ateneo de Manila University Batch 2008 of Bachelor of Science major in Advertising Management can reason out things like that to me, the Magna Cum Laude of the one of the most prestigious schools in the country, De La Salle University – Manila for the same course. I really can’t believe why Ateneo give that title to that arrogant man who only likes flirting with our other officemates and passing his errands to his secretary. I really can’t believe that he is my partner for our project about rapid change in the society. I really cannot believe it! I don’t know what God’s plans are but I really despised His plan me having an office next to him and being his partner for the rest of the year. I don’t know if this is karma about what I did when I was in college, bullying one of my block mates, but this is too much! Why on earth am I always near him? We are neighbors in Forbes Quezon City. We are classmates since pre-school until high school. He was my superhero then until one day in my high school years.

I used to like him when we are still young. He is my superhero until he did that nasty prank on me when we were in the ninth grade. It was our recess time and I had to go to the library because I had to do my homework for Literacy. When it was already time, I went back to our room and put my notebook on my desk. When I opened my bag, I saw a green snake! I was surprised when I saw it crawling on my things. I freaked out, yelled and disturbed the whole class. My numeracy teacher got so mad at me and she asked me to go to the discipline’s office and tell him what I did. As I walked my way to the door, that mean Rain tripped me that made me fell flat on the floor. I stood up, raised my face then walked in the corridor. I told myself that I will not cry because I am a brave girl. As soon as I entered the discipline’s office, I explained to the officer in charge that there was a snake in my bag. He asked me where did I get and I answered that I don’t know. He did not believe me and he sent me to the detention. I was so humiliated and furious about that especially when one of my good friends told me that he was the one who put that snake inside my bag. Rain put a snake inside my bag! He knows how much I despised snakes! I cried and cried to my mom because I thought that he is my superhero but I was wrong. He was the villain in my life. He is the antagonist that made my life miserable. And since that day, I wanted to go away from that guy and kill him.

He just made my life miserable when I was a kid and I want to have a better life without him. But look how destiny works! I thought that I will be away from him from the rest of my life since we studied college at different schools. I had a happy college life. No bullies. No pranksters. No mean and rude neighbor. No Kevin Brian Hernandez in sight. But sometimes, I feel that something is missing and I cannot tell what it is. It is like I am looking for something that will really make me happy.

After graduation, I immediately look for a job. I do not want to be one of the jobless Filipinos who keep on blaming the government for less job openings. They are pathetic. How on earth will they have jobs if all they do the whole day is lie around and watch noontime shows? They are always hoping that they will be able to join the contests and won some prize money. I hate to say this but some Filipinos are really lazy. We are born skilled workers. We are competent people but indolence hinders them to do things, look for jobs and use our skills to be successful in life. If only all the Filipinos are industrious, Philippines will be richer than Hong Kong or even Japan. Filipinos are very competent. I am very proud to say that because I am a very competent person. I always want to be on top because I believe that I deserve that. I have good grades since pre-school. My parents have high expectations from their only daughter so I always do my best. At first, I was not used to it but my mommy always tells me that it will lead me to a grander life. At a young age, I know what my dream is, to be the best among the best advertiser in the country. I love commercials more than television programs. They stimulate my mind to analyze if the products are worth the price.